Ha! I literally stumbled upon this abandoned blog today and it makes me want to reach out and give myself a hug 6 months ago - when I was worried sick about this M.I.A EAD. I am happy to say, I am sitting at work as I type, worries out the window. I promise to update more often, about happier, lighter things :) Like the Fall weather that is slowly, but surely blanketing over the hot, Chicago Summer sun.
Until then!
xoxo,
S
Friday, September 5, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
destination unknown.
In an ideal world, Garbage Girl will play on TV everyday, I will have a TV and I will get to wear all the clothes Serena wears on the show. But in a not so ideal world, like the one in which I live in, I will be hungry all the time, I will not have a TV and Garbage Girl will not be uploaded online promptly!
Today there is a new something-something in the air. I feel less like Marilyn Mason and more like myself :) Off to the coffeeshop to apply for more jobs. Fireman, locksmith, sales assistant, check check check!
Leelee I need to get a webcam stat so Skype convos may begin! Hurra!
Today there is a new something-something in the air. I feel less like Marilyn Mason and more like myself :) Off to the coffeeshop to apply for more jobs. Fireman, locksmith, sales assistant, check check check!
Leelee I need to get a webcam stat so Skype convos may begin! Hurra!
Monday, January 14, 2008
wa malo?
"I felt reprived and virtuous. Now I could sit in my own flat by myself and be pragmatic. Sometimes the best company is your own" - Jeanette Winterson, Written on the Body.
I am beginning to really enjoy my own company. This way I do not have to explain how I applied for the card in November and how I am in such a pitiful state and how terrified I am. It sickens me to narrate the story over and over, in response to hopeful, 'How is work treating you?" enquiries.
It is finally snowing out, and since I never have to leave the house, I am thoroughly enjoying it. Like looking into an urban snow globe, without having to deal with wet boots and a red nose. But today I did step out for a little bit, a quick emergency trip to the grocery store. A salad box and a chocolate bar. And I zipped home. But now I don't want to eat a salad, I want a greasy loaded hamburger, yes this is what I truly crave at the moment.
According to my calculations, I should have a definite answer between tomorrow and Friday. Yes, we have known this all along but it sounds more credible when attached to an "according to my calculation". Leelee I don't want you to see these writings anymore. They are no longer happy and entertaining, they're black, bleak desperate words strung together in my moments of anxiety! Stop reading and come back after a year or two!
Xoxo,
Gossip Girl
I am beginning to really enjoy my own company. This way I do not have to explain how I applied for the card in November and how I am in such a pitiful state and how terrified I am. It sickens me to narrate the story over and over, in response to hopeful, 'How is work treating you?" enquiries.
It is finally snowing out, and since I never have to leave the house, I am thoroughly enjoying it. Like looking into an urban snow globe, without having to deal with wet boots and a red nose. But today I did step out for a little bit, a quick emergency trip to the grocery store. A salad box and a chocolate bar. And I zipped home. But now I don't want to eat a salad, I want a greasy loaded hamburger, yes this is what I truly crave at the moment.
According to my calculations, I should have a definite answer between tomorrow and Friday. Yes, we have known this all along but it sounds more credible when attached to an "according to my calculation". Leelee I don't want you to see these writings anymore. They are no longer happy and entertaining, they're black, bleak desperate words strung together in my moments of anxiety! Stop reading and come back after a year or two!
Xoxo,
Gossip Girl
my music is where i'd like you to touch
Leelee…so you tell me your damn computer won’t arrive for another week, that’s BS. But at least this way we both have something to look forward to the end of this week. I will find out if I get to keep my job and you will have a means to stalk people online! Yes I am listening to Cansei de ser sexy and actually just switched to New Young Pony Club. And before these two it was Amr Diab. You have def. influenced or rather created my interest in listening to good music.
It’s almost 2:00 in the afternoon and several emails, notes and phone calls later, I still have no card. But I have started calling upon the Hindu gods this time to take my side. Soon I might just have to put on my yamaka and try and recall those prayers from Thanksgiving at San Francisco.
I am finally down to my very last frozen meal and very last two breakfast bars. But I am shying away from a trip to the grocery store because a) I don’t want to carry home heavy bags in the cold b) I have no appetite these days c) I have no money. C) should have come before a) and b). So what do I do with my time you ask? I watch fashion shows after fashion shows on Vogue.com and then I try out outfits that I pull and put together from my rather spacious walk-in closet. Earlier I wore a scarf and bag and heels and looked a lot like Lilly Vanderwoodsen. And before that it was Marc Jacobs meets cowgirl with the plaid arrangement. Yes, I am losing my mind slowly but surely.
I think I might stroll by the lake later or maybe stop at the coffee shop. Either way I will only have two things on my mind, You and my EAD. Oh and listen to this! Apparently, the immigration officer in-charge of processing my papers is called Leah! What meaningful co-incidence. It better amount to something I tell you :’(
Xoxo,
Gossip Girl.
It’s almost 2:00 in the afternoon and several emails, notes and phone calls later, I still have no card. But I have started calling upon the Hindu gods this time to take my side. Soon I might just have to put on my yamaka and try and recall those prayers from Thanksgiving at San Francisco.
I am finally down to my very last frozen meal and very last two breakfast bars. But I am shying away from a trip to the grocery store because a) I don’t want to carry home heavy bags in the cold b) I have no appetite these days c) I have no money. C) should have come before a) and b). So what do I do with my time you ask? I watch fashion shows after fashion shows on Vogue.com and then I try out outfits that I pull and put together from my rather spacious walk-in closet. Earlier I wore a scarf and bag and heels and looked a lot like Lilly Vanderwoodsen. And before that it was Marc Jacobs meets cowgirl with the plaid arrangement. Yes, I am losing my mind slowly but surely.
I think I might stroll by the lake later or maybe stop at the coffee shop. Either way I will only have two things on my mind, You and my EAD. Oh and listen to this! Apparently, the immigration officer in-charge of processing my papers is called Leah! What meaningful co-incidence. It better amount to something I tell you :’(
Xoxo,
Gossip Girl.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
leelee beans, this is for you.
Now before you start questioning the title, let me explain. ‘Kohinoor’ translates to mean ‘a mountain of light’ in Hindi and was once the largest diamond in the world. It originated in India until colonial masters seized it as a British crown jewel to present to Queen Victoria a.k.a ‘Empress of India’ in the late 17th century. Clearly, it has nothing to do with Konkana Sen Sharma or the Queen of our Arab mafia. But it has everything to do with the fact that you are such a gem of a child.
Lee I feel like a dead man walking, as I sit within the confinements of my apartment, albeit all it’s splendor, waiting for my damn EAD card. When I woke this morning it occurred to me that the possibility of my card arriving sometime next week is highly unlikely; it would be too Bollywood-ish and too just in the nick of time-ish! See! This is how it’s been these past two weeks in my head and heart, I keep thinking about what might happen and why this is all happening and plan for what I should do in case I lose the job, while cowering away from attempting tedious online job searches! Aaaah! Being a Nutcasimus Maximus is so much more stressful living alone.
So in your absence, my computer has become my new best friend. You know you both are similar in many ways. I wake up and the first thing I do is turn it on. And then it sings me Amr Diab’s ‘Allah’. And then it keeps me company and takes my mind off EAD stuff. And we watch garbage girl together…and so on…I am becoming so reliant on my computer I am so worried it’s going to stop working!
Last night was like every other night since I’ve moved to the city: shower, dinner, followed by watching old late night shows on the internet. It was all jim dandy until I decided to start messing with my nose ring and it suddenly just popped out! And I had to crawl around the floor, gently running my hand over the couch, blanket and carpet, trying to find the damn screw piece. And then when I had to put it back in my nose was bleeding and....it was all very saw three-esque. But I eventually managed to screw it back on, except I think I screwed it in too tight and now my left nostril feels like it has been clamped shut.
Well, hope your computer gets fixed real soon and I find a cheap functioning web cam. Miss you and love you.
XOXO,
Gossip Girl
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